one regret ..

if there's one thing that not very many people know about me .. is that im an ex-dancer.

no, not a .. i love to dance, i'm a dancer! .. and no, not the i love shaking my booty in the clubs i'm a dancer .. i mean a real dancer .. real training .. real rehearsals daily. and real performances.

i have 5 years of ballet under my belt, 5 years of jazz/hip hop, and 2 years of tap .. (i wasnt a tap fan). then after freshman year of high school, that summer. everything changed .. and all the things consumed my life and that were so important to me, were no longer anywhere in my sight. anywhere in my thoughts. it was more about fitting in and blending in with those plain, boring, simple minded people, then standing out and being different and doing the things that i love.

i mean i have experienced alot in my short time those people. and i had to grow up fast. real fast. the "real world" .. hit me about 16. and i survived. i learned. i changed.

i started young. ended young. and .. in my mind am still young!!!

those experiences have made me the woman i am today .. without a doubt!

and i do not have any regrets about that. i wouldnt change a thing. even knowing what i do now. (besides the education chapter in my life. that id like to take a re-do!! please!!)

but my one regret in life, is that i didnt keep up with my dancing.

i just let it all go.

something i loved sooooo much and i just let all my insecurities take over. and left her. never looked back. with the help of some self medication? easssssssy to momentarily forget.

but not forever.

oh how i regret leaving you. if i could turn back time. things would be different between you and i. you helped me through so much, you were always there for me.

and i am so sorry ..

and that is where i got my great calves! that i definitely thank you for! hahahahaha ...

thats the one thing i get complemented on alot. my legs, well my eyes too, but my eyes i was born with and my legs, i swear if it wasnt for ballet .. i dunno what theyd be like! cause quite honestly looking at the legs that come from my family .. not too cute!! ballet has truly molded my legs beautifully.

even if there is weight gain. my legs manage to always keep a nice shape.

i want my legs back!! they havent seen sunlight since .. I DONT EVEN KNOW!!!

i also need a tan!

this summer is mine!

watch out bitches .. i may have a newborn .. but if you saw how i get my workouts in .. you'd laugh.

literally .. while im getting my cardio on .. i laugh at myself ..

hahahahaaaaa .. :)