friday ..

so iv'e been tying last minute things together for Krys's baek-il party tomorrow! well its her baek-il .. but more of a party for .. us (:

the hubbies mom put a stop to everything saying she was going to handle everything .. blase blase blase .. we decided to do our own baek-il party for krystal with our friends .. since she was spazzing out about "family only" .. when in actuality "family only" has not been there to support and help kim at all. nor were they there for krystals babyshower or for god sakes even the birth of krystal. but my friends were. so for you to say no friends .. eff you. well anyways noones heard from her. we dont even know if shes coming. i talked to helen .. the hubbies cousin. and noone in her family has heard anything about it. and they were suppose to do it this sunday. and yea seriously .. noones heard from her. talk about psycho???

so it'll be a non-traditional korean/english baek il party! hahahahaaaaaaa .. last trip to the market tonight! party city~!! also thinking about picking up her cake tonight! so that way tomorrow .. we can cook all day and not have to leave the house .. :P

100 days passed in a quickness. its scary to see how fast she grows.

stop!!!

Joovy Zoom ATS Jogging Stroller

Joggers are a special breed, and jogging mommies (and moms-to-be!) have a lot more to take into account than others when it comes to selecting a stroller that will suit their needs. The good news is that there’s a new entry to the get-up-and-go market in the Joovy Zoom ATS ($300). With durability, sturdy construction and a comfortable ride for baby, it meets every criteria a serious jogger should have when deciding which ride to push.

Putting It Together: Right out of the box, setting up the Zoom ATS is relatively easy. The 16-inch rear pneumatic wheels are quick release, so breaking down the stroller is just as easy, and attaching the footrest to the Zoom ATS is also fairly straightforward. Setting up the handbrake and the fixed, front wheel took a little time — but I’ve always felt that a good jogging stroller shouldn’t snap together in a second or two. It’s going to take a beating, and you want to know that it can withstand all that you plan to dish out, right? All told, we were able to have the stroller fully operational in about 20 minutes which — for a jogger — is just about right.

The Ride: Once you’re up and running, this is what you’ll find: A smooth ride for parent and child, for starters. The shocks on the Joovy Zoom ATS do a great job of absorbing the impact of bumpy sidewalks and potholes, making it a sensible pick for even a simple stroll around the block. When you’re ready to pick up the pace, that smooth ride becomes even more important. There’s very, very little jostling of baby, freeing you up to relax and enjoy your run without feeling the need to anticipate every little obstacle in your path.

The Seat: There are three height adjustments for the shoulder straps of the five-point harness, making this a jogging stroller that will grow with your child. For a younger baby (the Joovy Zoom ATS can be safely used beginning at 6 months), the shoulder straps need to be positioned through sewn-in loops located on the seatback; for a taller child, use those same straps but without using the loops. Re-positioning the straps is fast — just unbuckle them from the harness buckle and feed them through the sewn-in loops, then secure by re-buckling them onto the harness buckle. The seat itself can be extended in either direction, from fully upright to fully reclined by way of an adjustment strap and lock tab. The canopy is a good size, with a sun visor and roll-back window so you can sneak a peek at baby as you run.

Storage and Other Features: As for safety features, a rear parking brake is located next to the right wheel; the handbrake only functions when the stroller is moving, so be sure to engage this rear brake if you want to keep the stroller from rolling. A tether strap for your wrist provides an added measure of security. The basket is a good size, but is only designed to hold 5 pounds safely — it’s fine for a sweatshirt or blanket, and I wouldn’t jog with much more than that anyway. If you’re out and about and disaster strikes in the form of a flat tire, no worries! The Zoom ATS even comes complete with a tire pump.

Instead of a traditional cup holder, the Zoom ATS offers a parent organizer. This feature is unlike any I’ve ever seen on a jogging stroller before, and I absolutely love it. Made of neoprene, it stretches across the length of the handlebar and includes two deep cup holders and a zippered pocket. Another nice touch is the full-size rain cover, which is included with the stroller. Like all joggers, the Zoom ATS doesn’t offer a compact fold. It’s just not possible with a stroller designed to log hundreds of miles. With that said, the Zoom ATS does have one of the more novel — and easy — folds I’ve ever seen. Under the seat is a tab labeled ‘fold,’ which when lifted, reveals a fold release lever. Simply push that in while grabbing the handle located in the middle of the release lever (also located under the seat) and pull up. Keep pulling in that direction, and before you know it the stroller collapses in on itself. A lock keeps the fold in place.

The Final Verdict: All in all I’m really pleased with the Zoom ATS. From a practical standpoint, it is more than capable of handing daily, multi-mile runs for as long as I need it to — which is really all I’m looking for in a jogging stroller. Because of its size and fixed-wheel design, it’s not what I’d reach for to stroll the mall, but most joggers seem to accept that they’ll need a separate stroller for those occasions. Joovy enthusiasts will no doubt be pleased with this new entry to the jogging stroller market, and even if you’re new to the brand, you will too.

i want this soooooooooooooooooo bad! but seriously .. 3 bills? :P

i am officially a celebrity baby blog addict .. :)

i decided to throw a seperate baek il party for krystal. seperate as in from the family .. hahhaaa

:)

nothing fancy ... just friends, drinks, food, and good times!

it's this saturday .. yay!

sooooo im trying not to get excited .. or hope for .. or even think about it .. but im applying for this position .. that has a a daycare onsite! it's for newborns to five year olds .. and even has a their own elementary school right next door. it would be perfect for me. cause i could take krystal to work everyday. and see her during breaks and lunch .. n then she could go to the elementary school right next door after ..

but, again, not trying to even think about it.

its in long beach! and hubby works in la. then we could finallllly move outta here. far far away! hahahaaa .. and by the time krystal starts school .. hubby's car will be paid off. and mine .. (which i would get as soon as i get a job ..) would almost be paid off. and we wouldnt have to pay for daycare anymore cause krys would be going to school and then we could finallllly buy a house .. :)

ahhhhhhhhhh onnly if life could be that perfect and go according to plan ...

but, again, really, im not thinking about it at all.

hahahaaaaa ..

shoot me ...

so krys's 100 day is coming up soon.

and being that my mom is not here. toms mom is not here .. and me not knowing jackshit .. i of course .. just simply googled it and tahdah! i now know what i need to do. so after researching, calling places, and trying to tie together her 100 day party .. of course ..of COURSE .. she calls .. and tells us not to do anything. that she has is under control.

yahhhhhh from hawaii riiiiiiiight ..

let me remind you this women was the one in charge of my wedding. that i totalllllllllllllly did not agree on 3/4 of the things she did. but had to sit there and smile. my mother couldnt even get in her 2 cents even though she was paying for half of my wedding. not that my mother had any good ides or anything .. but thats not the piont! OH and fyi i still dont have my wedding pics back .. yup .. i got married last may.

so i got into a bit of a tiff last week with the hubby .. cause im krys's mom i want to do her party. and i dont care if i dont know anything about it. i can TELL you all about it .. i fuckin researched it .. it aint that hard!

i decided to bite my tongue. and just let her. i also told hubby after this .. NO MORE. SHE IS DOING NO MORE. ITS NOT NEEDED. ITS NOT WANTED. she can attend future events if she shuts her face and sits there.

you may think im being mean. but im not, you dont know the whole story.

what do you know. her 100 day party is on sunday, february 1st. n toms mom wont call neone back. meaning jack shit is done.

and to an organized list person with timelines that have been mapped out in her head ... this is not good for her heart!

i still dont have my wedding pics back. yes the ones that looked like i couldve taken better pics with my 7.1 megapixel canon!

shes not even half assed. shes 1/4 ASSED!

im not looking forward for her to be joining us from hawaii. and im praying she leaves riiiiiiight after the party.

please .. God? just give me this .. please?

one regret ..

if there's one thing that not very many people know about me .. is that im an ex-dancer.

no, not a .. i love to dance, i'm a dancer! .. and no, not the i love shaking my booty in the clubs i'm a dancer .. i mean a real dancer .. real training .. real rehearsals daily. and real performances.

i have 5 years of ballet under my belt, 5 years of jazz/hip hop, and 2 years of tap .. (i wasnt a tap fan). then after freshman year of high school, that summer. everything changed .. and all the things consumed my life and that were so important to me, were no longer anywhere in my sight. anywhere in my thoughts. it was more about fitting in and blending in with those plain, boring, simple minded people, then standing out and being different and doing the things that i love.

i mean i have experienced alot in my short time those people. and i had to grow up fast. real fast. the "real world" .. hit me about 16. and i survived. i learned. i changed.

i started young. ended young. and .. in my mind am still young!!!

those experiences have made me the woman i am today .. without a doubt!

and i do not have any regrets about that. i wouldnt change a thing. even knowing what i do now. (besides the education chapter in my life. that id like to take a re-do!! please!!)

but my one regret in life, is that i didnt keep up with my dancing.

i just let it all go.

something i loved sooooo much and i just let all my insecurities take over. and left her. never looked back. with the help of some self medication? easssssssy to momentarily forget.

but not forever.

oh how i regret leaving you. if i could turn back time. things would be different between you and i. you helped me through so much, you were always there for me.

and i am so sorry ..

and that is where i got my great calves! that i definitely thank you for! hahahahaha ...

thats the one thing i get complemented on alot. my legs, well my eyes too, but my eyes i was born with and my legs, i swear if it wasnt for ballet .. i dunno what theyd be like! cause quite honestly looking at the legs that come from my family .. not too cute!! ballet has truly molded my legs beautifully.

even if there is weight gain. my legs manage to always keep a nice shape.

i want my legs back!! they havent seen sunlight since .. I DONT EVEN KNOW!!!

i also need a tan!

this summer is mine!

watch out bitches .. i may have a newborn .. but if you saw how i get my workouts in .. you'd laugh.

literally .. while im getting my cardio on .. i laugh at myself ..

hahahahaaaaa .. :)

no matter what ...

no matter what happens in life ..






it will always be you n me .. hand in hand ..

i will always your back ..

no matter what ...

Everywhere I'm turning
Nothing seems complete
I stand up and I'm searching
For the better part of me
I hang my head from sorrow
state of humanity
I wear it on my shoulders
Gotta find the strength in me

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Even when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes
I'm a Superwoman

For all the mothers fighting
For better days to come
And all my women, all my women sitting here trying
To come home before the sun
And all my sisters
Coming together
Say yes I will
Yes I can

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Even when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yesI'm a Superwoman

When I'm breaking down
And I can't be found
And I start to get weak
Cause no one knows
Me underneath these clothes
But I can fly
We can fly, Oh

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Even when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes I'm a Superwoman!

a sigh of major relief ...

soooooo .. the one thing that has been realllllllllllllllllllllllly bothering me .. besides the fact i have all this excess .. STUFF all over my body from the pregnancy .. even dropping 20 of it after my pregnancy .. im not okay with it! but the thing that was really bothering me .. my engagement ring wouldnt fit! i cant remember exactly when it didnt start to fit. or more so ive chosen not to remember ... i just remember during the middle of my pregnancy .. swelling in the hands and feet were a majorrrrrrrrrr problem for me .. ive never looked down and had cankles!! never!!!! it was so bad that my doctor freaked out at my weight gain one week .. not understanding .. cause i didnt look like i was gaining too much weight .. then he looked down at my cankles .. "OH .. you are soo swollen .. thats a relief!"

ummmmmmmmm relief?

turns out all that extra weight was water weight from all my swollenesssssssssss ..

all in all ..

i tried my ring on for the first time since i had krystal ..

oh man let me tell you those few seconds before i slipped on the ring was such a moment of anxiety .. followed with a major sigh of relief ...

it fuckin finally fits ..

a new year. a new life. a new me.

2009.

a new year. a new life. a new me.

the other day, hubby asked me a question that totally threw me off gaurd.

"Is this where you pictured yourself in life at 27 when you were younger?"

i thought for a sec .. and in a matter of about 3 seconds, what and where, i thought i would be at 27 flashed through my head ..

I answered honestly, "No."

Then I noticed that I might have offended him

"not that im not okay or happy with where i am .. its just not where i thought id be ...

and of course it led to ... "what did you think, how was it going to be?"

i was embarrassed to even say. i didn't answer.

im still embarrased to say ..

a girl can hold on to her childhood fantasy of how her life would be as an adult in private .. no?

cheers to a new year. a new life. and a new me ...