feeling great ..

im finally knocking out what i use to and i feel great. i refuse to go on the scale though .. just, we havent been getting along at all. and its been quite hard on me .. not seeing any numbers go down .. but i must say i feel great. i gave myself until june 1st before letting myself get back on. last night i had a kick ass workout .. thanks to the best damn hooters show they decided to show at the gym. it was funny looking around the gym .. seeing girls disgusted and leaving, and of course the guys .. hahahaha all their heads point into 3 different directions .. all three aimed towards the three tvs that were showing .. well, hooters. ha~ me? it made me wasnna do the extra 3 miles. they should replay that contest over and over and over again. well, atleast while im at the gym.

its crazy insane seeing krys grow so fast. her grabbing her toes .. so freakin cute. talking her baby language. even when she gets frustrated .. SO CUTE~! her love for me is crazy strong. the way she looks at me. it makes me melt.

whats even more insane .. me having a baby. it has been confirmed from all my friends. that go into shock .. and even trip out when were walkng down the street .. it never fails, they will always look over at me and say .. omg. i cant believe that YOU have a baby. at first it was like .. i know, me too.

but now .. i get a bit offended.

which just opened another can of worms. i cant stand .. CANT STAND .. how soooooo many people have SOOO many things to say about how to raise a kid. what we should and should not be doing. and let her cry. dont let her cry. you baby her too much. you dont baby her enough. dont do this dont do that. and seriously. the one thing i always ask myself is this how many kids does this person have? and how well mannered and well behaved is your child?

NONE. or NOT AT ALLL!

the ones that have never had a kid in their lives have SO much to say. SO much they think they know, when in fact .. its like HELLO YOU DONT EVEN HAVE KIDS.

which brings me to an apology .. cause quite frankly, i too was a person with no child that judged. judged mothers for how they raise their children. judged mothers for having breakdowns. judge mothers for the way they looked. what they wore. judgejudgejudge, when i had no clue. no idea. what it takes to raise a child. i dont know what is right and what is wrong. i mean in general of course .. yeah. but this is my first time having a kid. and im sure like most things that are a first time .. we make mistakes. we learn. and we grow. so i apologize for all the judgement that was passed. i was a naive girl that had no right, no right at all.

and a big FUCK YOU to the ones have passed judgement on me. yes all of you .. especially the ones with NO KIDS!

a piece of advise to you. look at your own life and judge yourself. you are farrrrrrr from perfect. believe that.

and yes same goes for me.

shame on all of us.

just grab your toes.

:)

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