it's been tooooooo long

wow. i have really neglected you. and i am so sorry. life has been pretty busy. life is good. crazy. up n down. all around. but in the end. krystal makes it soooooooo much better. i do not know what i would do without her. and she is growing so fast everyday. everyday. and i feel like im missing so much cause of work. but no work. no money. and money. how would i be able to provide all plus more for my baby? playing with her this morning. wow. she is getting so big.

do you remember that show .. a long long time ago .. where that girl could stop time by putting her 2 first fingers together?

well .. im *puttingmy2firstfingerstogether* and the time aint stopping.

:(

these are LITERALLLLLLY OFF THE CHAIN ...

I WANT, I NEED, I HAVE TO HAVE .. ~!!



why cant money grow on trees?

i dont want to jinx it.

so im not going to talk about it!
but i will definitely let you guys know if i have or have not gotten the JOB.
:P
*crossingfingers*

the marc jacobs blazer i thought i would never fit back into. isnt it soo cuute.



i love the collar



AND the cuffs and the pockets



i saw the funniest thing on the road. literally a thing. i cant even call it a car, but it had plates and registration and everything!



goofy mood.



and yes. we go to the movies to .. SLEEP. hahahaa .. DURING CB!!
CB = CHRISTIAN BALE.
how is that even possible??
I DONT KNOW.




nina and baby yah <3 <3

omgomgomg.

so.
wow.
i saw my friend kelli last saturday.
we hung out, had lunch, her hubby took a couple of pics of krys for me ..




i txted her on thursday, cause ive been really gungho on finding a job. and thats the job that i reallllly wanted. it has the on site daycare and the preshool right next door that is fully accredited by the National Association for the Education of Young Children.

wow.

so she told me she turned in my resume friday morning cause .. there is a JOB that opened .. that is just for me .. i get a call friday afternoon. i have an interview monday at 2.

omgomgomg.

i havent interviewed in YEARS .. and i am sooo nervous. moreso cause i want THIS job .. bad. real bad. and i already know the disappoint ill feel if i dont get it. i know there are younger, fresher, more educated, candidates out there. ughhhhh .. and that'll just put a knife right into my ego. ;P

omgomgomg.

i am so nervous.

and i know exactly what i am going to wear. i have these reallllly cuuute dark grey slacks. and i think i am going to go with the a black blouse. and my reaLLLLLY CUUTE dark plum mark jacobs blazer. the collar and cuffs are to die for on this blazer. i must post a pic of it. and if course some reallly cute black peep toe pumps. to curl the hair .. or to go pin straight? to wear the cartier watch .. or not :) would it be tooo much? hahahaahaaa ..

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO nervous.

please pray for me. please wish me luck!

i know i mentioned how i was going to do better with bloggin .. blase blase blase. sorry!

its been a crazy month. lots of drama. i hate uncertainity. in any type of situation. but i guess thats what makes life. well, life.

i still havent picked up Q. the vet wants to make sure hes completely ready. hes been there 5 days. and the bill. oh my. BUT its not even close to the 3 day estimation gg gave me. wow. they tried to rob me. even in my state of tears and being hysterical that my cat was going to die. they reallly used that to try and rob me? and the dr. pissed me off at gg. he kept calling me kiddo. kiddo. kiddo. fuck. that got under my skin! i know its cause i forgot to wear my wedding ring. cause when i went back .. he called me kiddo. until i saw him glance down and see my ring. then it stopped. :)

did you know that there are aniaml organizations that will donate money towards your pets bill if its a life threatening emergency. and some organizations pay for your spay or nueter bill? i didnt. but thank you to the following organizations:

Feline Veterinary Emergency Assistance Program

Concerned Animal Lovers

Actors & Others
OCSCPA

Animal Welfare
United Animal Nations

seriously .. without their help .. i wouldve have been sooooo SOL.

ive been using this stuff for your eyelashes .. its suppose to make them longer and fuller .. and i dont think its working ...

a couple pics of baby yah .. before her father gave her the UGLIEST haircut ever. it makes her look so much like a boy. and her dad!

donjuan Louis Vuiton

she likes phones and computers??

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my bad ..

i was bad this month.

including this .. half assed blog

ive only blogged three times this month.

my bad!

i promise to be a more dedicated blogger.

:)

a test?

these last 2 weeks? have been an absolute craziness of ups n downs. emotionally. physically. mentally.

quite an eye opener.

walls up time? maybe.

a test of faith? maybe.

and am i superwomen. yes.

a frustrated superwomen. i feel like im doing SO much all by myself. i live in a house full of 3 grown men. and i feel like i do everything myself.

what would happen if i just stopped. stopped doing the dishes. laundry. cleaning the floors. dusting. bathrooms. organizing everything so its not such a fuckin hot mess everywhere.

nothing.

it would just be an unsuitable place for me and krystal to live.

pmsing much? hahahahaa ..



she always makes me smile. drool much?

loves it.

i hope the summer days are here to stay ...

how come these last 10 lbs are so hard to get rid of?

;P

i <3 the sun ...

the sun makes me so happy, i loves it~!
helen and david finally got married on saturday.

we didnt get to stay too long. krys was a getting a bit fussy towards the end of dinner.

so we left. i wanted to go on the yacht party .. it wouldve been fun. next time.

hubbys bday was on sunday, but we threw a get together on saturday night as soon as we got back from the wedding.

chill night. and another year passes for hubby .. hahahhaa ..

i had a pap smear yesterday, so unfortunately i cheated on my "do not get on the scale until june 1st" promise. i must say though i left with a little skip in my step. 8 lbs lost since the scale not budging AT ALL a couple weeks back. :)

10 more lbs .. and i will be at my pre baby weight .. 100 el bee zee's. and i will fit into my jeans!

hahahahahaaaa ...

my fitness jam of the week .. black eyed peas .. boom boom pow~!

looking forward to a great summer.

i love the sun.

feeling great ..

im finally knocking out what i use to and i feel great. i refuse to go on the scale though .. just, we havent been getting along at all. and its been quite hard on me .. not seeing any numbers go down .. but i must say i feel great. i gave myself until june 1st before letting myself get back on. last night i had a kick ass workout .. thanks to the best damn hooters show they decided to show at the gym. it was funny looking around the gym .. seeing girls disgusted and leaving, and of course the guys .. hahahaha all their heads point into 3 different directions .. all three aimed towards the three tvs that were showing .. well, hooters. ha~ me? it made me wasnna do the extra 3 miles. they should replay that contest over and over and over again. well, atleast while im at the gym.

its crazy insane seeing krys grow so fast. her grabbing her toes .. so freakin cute. talking her baby language. even when she gets frustrated .. SO CUTE~! her love for me is crazy strong. the way she looks at me. it makes me melt.

whats even more insane .. me having a baby. it has been confirmed from all my friends. that go into shock .. and even trip out when were walkng down the street .. it never fails, they will always look over at me and say .. omg. i cant believe that YOU have a baby. at first it was like .. i know, me too.

but now .. i get a bit offended.

which just opened another can of worms. i cant stand .. CANT STAND .. how soooooo many people have SOOO many things to say about how to raise a kid. what we should and should not be doing. and let her cry. dont let her cry. you baby her too much. you dont baby her enough. dont do this dont do that. and seriously. the one thing i always ask myself is this how many kids does this person have? and how well mannered and well behaved is your child?

NONE. or NOT AT ALLL!

the ones that have never had a kid in their lives have SO much to say. SO much they think they know, when in fact .. its like HELLO YOU DONT EVEN HAVE KIDS.

which brings me to an apology .. cause quite frankly, i too was a person with no child that judged. judged mothers for how they raise their children. judged mothers for having breakdowns. judge mothers for the way they looked. what they wore. judgejudgejudge, when i had no clue. no idea. what it takes to raise a child. i dont know what is right and what is wrong. i mean in general of course .. yeah. but this is my first time having a kid. and im sure like most things that are a first time .. we make mistakes. we learn. and we grow. so i apologize for all the judgement that was passed. i was a naive girl that had no right, no right at all.

and a big FUCK YOU to the ones have passed judgement on me. yes all of you .. especially the ones with NO KIDS!

a piece of advise to you. look at your own life and judge yourself. you are farrrrrrr from perfect. believe that.

and yes same goes for me.

shame on all of us.

just grab your toes.

:)

;)

your'e the one that i love ..

ooooooooh oooooooooh ooooooooooooooh~

hahhahahahahahahahaaa .. yah, i went there .. grease on that ass. ;)

yup .. rockin orange gym pants ,, hahahahahahahahaha~

building my stamina

hahahahaha .. it sounds so naughty! but i am building up my stamina quite nicely. i am still burning 400+ calories a day. i feel great, but my jeans still dont fit and quite frankly, it hurts.

rock hard body .. i want you now!

;)

driving me mad

so things keep changing and its driving me quite mad. i am such an organizational freak .. with my checklist to charts to always having atleast a base plan.

so you can imagine how much all this changing is is driving me insane.

we came to a conclusion awhile bit ago that we would have to move out. under the certain circumstances. it was a must. we gave ourselves until june. and all of us would be out of here. yah like the mexicans that took all their stuff and left. yah, we would have been those people.

a friend of ours came over last night. looked at all the papers and told us we were completely mad to even think of doing that.

need i remind you, it was not OUR plan. alcoholism is a bitch. :P

hopefully with much prayer this plan works out. and we send of F in L to hawaii to be with M in L.

and we can live here happily ever after.

even happier after the B in L's move out.

i havnet been able to walk around in my underwear .. in God knows how long.

:(

lots a love

iphone love ..


nina love .. hahahaha do you see whats wrong with this pic?


i <3 new york love ..

nina love ...

laker love ..




i have been seeing my dear friend gym .. for the last week and a half .. burning 400 plus calories a day .. so why does the scale say not a single pound has of fat has disappeared from my body ..

:(

staring a a beautiful pile of jeans that i can not fit into ..

its actually quite depressing .. hahahaa

pooooooped ...

am soo pooped

had a long weekend ..

friday was a good day. hit up the gym. OH which reminds me .. ive been going to the one in cerritos off the 605 and it is crazzzzzzzzzzzzzy packed. ughhhh .. so i decided to hit up the one in la mirada. and oh em gee .. apparently the people in the city of la mirada do not care much about working out. wow talk about empty. makes me soo happy! hahahahahaaa .. on a good road to recovering my bod. ;)

rockin rock hard bodies this summer .. ya dig? yah .. vanity is a bitch .. :P

on saturday jasmine came over .. we went out to lunch .. hit up the mall after .. and well, just caught up. had a blast. yah.yah.yah. ;) krystal was sooo good. the whole time. until we were on our way home. then it was OVER. tired, hungry, tired. yeahhhhhh crazy ride home. got home fed her, changed her and then she knocked out throughout the night. :)

sunday .. was my ex coworker's son bday. so i got krystal ready. got myself ready. headed out to toysrus to go grab colins gift, i followed the request of hubby to get colin THE BEST nerf gun there was. so i grabbed a $30.00 plastic gun that shoots glow in the dark darts .. yahhhhhh .. hahahaha .. and they even dug out the razor to give to him. toooo cute. then headed to the bowling alley .. wow. i felt old. especially when you have little kids coming up to you to ask for permission to have soda. yah. and then going on a mission cause that one boy harrison, (his name is spelt H-A-R-R-I-S-O-N) yes, he spelt it for me, is not allowed to drink soda. so of course .. knowing that i would be the type of mother that wil lnot allow krystal to drink soda. went on a mission to buy him an almost $2.00 little bottled water. :P

kids grow fast. just last year. emma was a baby. a colin was a bigger baby. and now. wow .. talk about grown. little mini adults i tell ya. so well mannered. well spoken. and polite.

colin, his bff harrison, and emma baby.

colin slipped and fell .. hahahahahaha!

kelli helping emma baby ..

so cute.

emma and her friends lolita. yes, lolita aka lola. hahahahahaha .. so cute!

kelli also gave me krystals gift .. she wasnt able to make her baek il party ... soo cute. of course she went overboard and bought her like 7 outfits and the book. the bible on how to raise your child. methods that most parents look at in horror. but when i look at those parents kids and kellis kids. yeahhh im definitely looking into how kelli raised her kids. and i think i may follow the bible.

i put it in effect today. affect, effect. whatever. she pretty much followed schedule on her own. except the putting her down for a nap part. she wants me to hold her and rock her to sleep. the bible states. no. just put her down and let her sleep. and i did that. and for 40 min straight. it was crazy screaming crying shakiness in her voice from screaming soo hard. yah. it hurt me soo much. 20 min into it i of course txted kelli. help. should i just pick her up. kelli of course responds in a quickness. no. 35 min later. still at it. i txt kelli. help. shes still crying. she txted .. fine. pick her up. by the time i got her txt. it was .. quiet? oh em gee. 40 min of straight crazy screaming .. (she has her fathers stubborness. okay and maybe mine too) she finally went to sleep. it still in the back of my mind. will she think i dont love her if i do this? nooo ?? is what i keep telling myself. i play with her with love, feed her with love, change her with love, shower her with l ove, speak toh er with love, just cause i do not rock her and hold her to put her to sleep (which may i remind you smetimes takes an hour! AND if i try to put her down. shell wake up and cry again .. which then i hold her through her WHOLE NAP!) she will not think i do not love her. she will not develop insecurity from this. she is a SUPEr happppy baby. she knows shes loved. im just not letting her control me.

wow. shes sleeping right now. like i do not have to hold her. like omg. like my arm is not falling asleep. like.like.like. hahahhahaaaa ...

hahahaha time to get my cleaning done!

omg! this is insane!

has it been that long ..

wow, getting back into the swing of my gooood ol' friend .. gym.

could it have been THAT long.

it hurts. emotionally. not being able to put out .. what use to be soooooo easy .. but, i must not push my body toooo hard.

i must say. the feeling is awesome. being able to go to the gym. i know people are thinking .. youre so retarded.

but you just dont understand. my body is starting to feel like it did before. relief. do you know how many horror stories i heard during my pregnancy?

all i need is for my hair to stop falling out! no not wig status .. but yes .. fallling out. :(

like i said .. the summer is mine. i cant wait. yeah remember that cuuute bikini i purchased last year .. right before i got pregnant. yah. and many more bikini purchases to come this summer. *winkwink* ...

oh man. summer days. with my baby boo boo<3>

this morning, our matching morning hair~!

xoxo~!

boycott fb??

so according to perez ...

Boycott Facebook! Here's Why
Filed under: Icky Icky Poo > Tech Talk

We're so glad we've never uploaded any of our stuff onto Facebook!
You Facebook users are SCREWED.
Did you know that everything you've loaded up into your profile (personal pictures, etc.) belongs to Facebook, even after you've closed your account?
That's what it says in the Terms of Service you agreed to when you opened your account, apparently.
The Consumerist recently uncovered this disturbing info and it's causing quite a stir.
So, what does this mean?
Basically, Facebook can do whatever the hell they want with YOUR STUFF.
And, they can do so WITHOUT your permission.
For example, they can license your personal pictures out to companies, make a shizzle of money and don't have to give you a dime.
Sounds really, really shitty and sooo shady!!!!!

????

never again

i was craving yogurtland yesterday.


so steve took me to go get some.


omg. wtf. are we not in a recession?


so how come sooo many people are shopping!



never ever again will i ever go to the one in cerritos mall.

to be quite honest ..

i am not a valentine's day fan. i do not like going out on valentine's day. puhlease? whats so romatinc about everyone and their mammas heading out to dinner on the same night. where everything takes forever .. its jammm packed and crazy loud.





but that does not mean .. that i do not expect a present! hahahahaaa ..




elsa perreti .. letter k initial pendant. k is for krystal. not kim. :)







we did vday at home.

lobster, crab, steak, corn, n fruit for dessert!


ive finally made a deal with the hubby.

im officially heading back to the gym starting tonight.

i deserve 2 hours a night ALONE.

i hope it comes back!

its there everyyy morning .. and then .. BAM .. gone ..

i love it!

i should reallly appreciate this time i have. cause honestly who knows when ill be able to just chill out at home with my baby?

but its always like that. when youre working .. you wish you could have lazy days again. when you have lazy days? it drives you nuts and you wish you were working again.

right now. its a good time. im ENJOYING my lazy days .. watching krys grow. watching her become stronger. watching her be soooo observant of everything. watching her trying to talk. omg. insane. trust me. TRUST ME. i was one to never really want kids. i was terrified. i was even terrified of the whole marriage thing. i cant believe me. im married. with a kid. all my friends freak out when they hear this. but i guess thats the thing with being a women. you may think you werent cut out for all this. youd be surprised. i think im capable of being a super mom.

i use to look at those mothers that worked spent time with their kids and family. kept their home beautifully up to par. cook. clean. and even had time for themselves and her friends. and i really thought wow. their crazy. i dont know how they do it.

but i do. and i can. and i will.

i can be a supermom!

my scrapbook material collection ..


pretty scrapbook papers


borders

cute little phrase stickers

3d stickers/sayings

all sorts of different sticker letters

what it looks like while im scrapbooking ..

awwwwwwww her first scrapbook!

it takes soooo much time just to creat 1 page. but in the end .. its soo worth it. i love seeing the outcome. i love creating different pages!

adjusting ...

things are finally settling in nicely. krystal is falling in to a nice schedule. even living with a man that makes it almost impossible to put her on a schedule due to his "problem." its all about stability for a baby. and it was sooooo hard trying to pull that off here. but id like to think i did a pretty damn good job. especially under my circumstances.

which brings me to my next problem. patience is a virtue .. right? well im laccccccking that one for sure. i want out now. i want to move. i want to start building my home. i want to go furniture shopping and buy beautiful pieces to start our life with .. i want to decorate krystals room. i want to pick up my new car TODAY. i want i want i want .. NOW.

remember kim. patience is a virtue. one that i am lacking.

i must set a good example.

patience is a virtue. patience is a virtue. patience is a virtue.

i wonder if i type that enough .. i will automatically obtain that virtue?

hahahahaaaa ..

patience is a bitch.

i had lunch with nina on .. tuesday? had a blast. a very good friend of mine since jr. high. very good. kit i even whilei was in ny. and then yeah. some stuff in her life. but its all g now. it was like nothing changed. but it did .. cause were older. but it didnt. we were looking through old pictures. it was crazy insane. i cant believe my make up back then. what the hell was i thinking? hahahaaa ..

at the restaurant ..

isnt she sooooo cute!